The Ugly Side
For the most part, people will compliment you for being “the sweetest” or “the kindest”. I have always thought of myself as an honest, sincere, kind-hearted and giving person. My wish is for everyone to live a happy life. But then I realized I’m not as great as I think I am. I am not “the nicest person ever”. I am selfish, jealous, over-emotional, and I am slowly becoming a less happy person.
Looking for the good in others is fading in me. The belief that judgment and gossip is a waste of time seems to be fleeting. What is going on with me? It might be important for me to understand how I got here, but what I am the most worried about right now is getting out. Getting out of my own head. My own bubble. I don’t want to be this person.
There is good in most people, and I want to believe that again. The world is not out to get me. I need to learn to trust and not judge others. I’m not as nice as I thought I was. Judgment and gossip have consumed me more than I would like to admit. Regardless of who I have become, I know I can still better myself.
Most people think they’re good people. They probably are. Contemplating on how good you are doesn’t make you a better person though. That’s what I realized this week. Instead let’s all work on those negative characteristics we have. I’m living for it. The ugly side of me is growing, and I’m ready to change.
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