Finding Peace and Happiness
People talk about work and life balance all the time, and I can’t seem to find it. Constantly thinking about work. Pondering on where I want to be in the next 5-10 years. Do I always want to work for someone else? I’m at the starting line of my career. I’m 22 years old wandering the world post graduate and pre student loans. I can’t seem to figure out what exactly I want to do in my life. I want to bake and sweeten up someone’s day. Brighten up a sad fellow with a beautiful story. I want to capture an emotion with my camera.
At the end of each day, I want to know I lived a purposeful day. I want to live to give and help others. I feel stuck. Almost everything is about money. Work from 9-5, get a paycheck, and live for the weekends. That’s not the life I want to live.
I want something bigger. No, I don’t want material things. If I can contribute to the planet, humanity, my community, my neighborhood in a positive way, that would be enough. Above all, if I can make one person smile — it’s good enough for me. I’m having a hard time at work right now. We are going through a transition period. Difficult to endure, but we’re getting through it. I might blog about it later. We shall see.
I’m not saying I’m living a miserable life.
I’m blessed with a great support system: Johnathon, family, friends, and amazing co-workers. What is my happiness right now? Finding joy in the moments I get to share with everyone I love and care for, laying next to my two beagles, writing for my blog, and trying out cool new restaurants/coffee shops/boutiques. I’m shaky when it comes to work. The uncertainty, the 10 billion years of experience I must have to apply for an entry level position, the weariness of what exactly I want to do for the rest of my life. Live with no regrets. I want to look back on my life as an 80+ year old women knowing I had the best life I couldn’t even have imagined.
I’m going to find peace and joy in my life. That’s my life goal. I have it in so many aspects, but I need it for my career as well. Let’s do this together.